Likes and Dislikes

15 minutes before my literature class starts and I decide to write something. Purely random but relevant.

Likes:
1) Sipping a hot cuppa coffee in the morning.
2) Staring at the vapors that I breathe out when it's cold.
3) Reading the Bible and looking at God in a new, fresh way.
4) Killing enemy scums in Halo 3 with friends.
5) Inventing fusion dishes.
6) Sleeping till it's 3 pm in the afternoon.
7) Going out during the night for a good run around campus.

Dislikes:
1) Drinking a cup of diluted coffee that won't wake me up in the morning.
2) Running in the cold, while my ears and face crinkles up, because I'm late to class.
3) Making God into religion and a set of rules of do-s and don't-s.
4) Having my hopes of having a 4-player co-op crushed when the controller from Walmart doesn't functions.
5) Nuclear explosion and diarrhea.
6) Waking up at 8 am every weekday for class.
7) Having a terrible run because of allergies.

Desert Wanderings

"At once the Spirit sent him out into the desert, and he was in the desert forty days, being tempted by Satan. He was with the wild animals, and angels attended him." Mark 1:12-13

"Therefore, since we have a great high priest who has gone through the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to the faith we profess. For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet was without sin. Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need." Hebrews 4:14-16

I get so frustrated with myself from time-to-time. It's easy to put up a fake smile, and go around pretending that everything is fine when it is not. I hate to give people the false impression that I don't struggle with any issues. Man, if people can only see how rotten I am in the inside.

I want to continue to be fervent and on fire for God. But the sad fact is, I've always end up making God into a list of do-s and don't-s, and then realizing later, very much later, that all He wants is for me to rely on Him for all that I need.

A big struggle of mine is that, many times, I choose to just turn away from God whenever I realize that I can't do anything to get things right by myself. I mean, what's the point of doing what is right when I know in the future, I will inevitably have some pitfalls, whether I want it or not. Call it kiasu-ness or whatever! I just hate it when I fall. I want a clean slate now and never ever be black listed. What's the point of trying to keep a clean slate when I know I can never keep it clean all the time. (Notice the italics?)

And funny thing is, when I choose to flee from God, He always end up being at the end of when I don't expect Him to be.

Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?

If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there. (Psalm 139:7-8)

Thankfully, I'm glad that God is constantly faithful. Even when I try to run away from Him, He always finds a way to woo me back into His wide, flung opened arms. It's just so often I get carried away, thinking it's all about me. God has a funny sense of humor to tell me that it's never about me first place, but it's about Him. Furthermore, He even claims that He'll "remember my sins no more". I'm just so glad that even though God knows I'm all rotten inside, He chooses to see me through Jesus. I'll never be worthy of Him, never be able to reach His standards, and never will be like Him, and He knows that. Yet, He comes close to those who know they are a mess. He didn't come for those who are well but those who needs to be healed. He came for us, for me.

God, have mercy on me, a sinner!

The Ajisai Asian Fashion Show

Last night was the debut of ACU's very first Asian Fashion Show. The show, which lasted for 2 whole hours, featured, mostly, modern and urban Asian clothing. The turn ups were pretty strong, and it was not surprising that many lined even through the exterior of Teague, where it was held.

I went to Teague a little past 7 pm, which was the time when the show was about to start. I was mostly busy because of my rushed schedule of making 'siew mai' for the show as well as trying to dye my hair brown for my get-up. Thankfully, some of my trustworthy and dependable friends aided me as I attempted to get things ready for the show. *Wipe sweat off brow* Being the cook, food server and mascot is not easy.

By the time I got to Teague, the place was crowded with I-don't-know-how-many-people-but-it-was-too-numerous-to-count, Elena and I snaked through the line, cut across hundreds of people and reached our food-dispenser corner. There we just served food and perhaps give people a good impression of Asian fashion. And as y'all know, I was cosplaying. Unfortunately, my hair color didn't change. It must have been God's will for my hair to remain black for the whole of eternity.


But whatever. As if anybody really watches Bleach nowadays... with all the fillers and stuff.

Well, back to the food-talk... Uh, I have to agree that the free food was never enough and we weren't able to demonstrate any sort of Jesus-power that night. The food was actually good, but it was really cheezy, if you know what I mean (cough... crab... cough... rangoon... ahem).

The show, long as it was, was actually quite short. I regretted that I had brought my glasses over to the show. I struggled to squint my eyes as small as I could, and yet failed to see anything. Now I know how the blind man, who saw people who looked like trees after the first time Jesus healed him, in the book of Mark, felt. Fortunately, I had Elena as my commentator that night. Unfortunately for y'all, I can't say much of the show as I didn't really watched it, with my eyes half-closed (or half-open) and yet not really seeing anything.

After the show had ended, some of my friends and I went for a little photo shooting for fun. *For all the glamor that Aizen receives, I feel personally that he doesn't have many cool poses and thank God for Elena who contributed ideas to make all these super-uber poses possible*

My Sister and I

"Hau Sang Loi" and I

Chigusa and Iki

My Teammate and I

Teammate strikes a pose for-the-win

South East Asians Only

Well, that's all for the fashion show, folks. Now, it's time for me to get back to bed and lament the fact that I caught the cold. Till next time. おならしてください。(Do translate the phrase)

いつでも、どこでも

いつでも、どこでも、
君は私を待ってくれている。
君はずっと待っている、
暗闇の中で、
あなたが泣いているのを聞いた。
泣かないで下さい！
いまここにいる、いつもここにいる。
絶対君は守ってくれる。
君はずっと待っている。
だから、心配しないで。
ほほ笑んでいてください、
いつでも、どこでも。

Ready, Set, Go!!!

Midterm is here. The hardest week is about the begin but I'm gonna cling to Romans 5:3-4. Bring it on, I'm ready! がんばるよ！